SURREAL

These past few days i have been on a kind of emotional roller coaster, Happy for Jacob to be moving away from the bottle, happy for Jacob to have pulled up again, happy to see him paly with his best friend Isaac. Things seems to be moving so fast these days and i find myslef upset about it, really i think about Josh missing so much but then have to remind myslef about the sermon spoken this past sunday, "Joy in the midst of tragedy" so of course i don't veiw Jacobs developments as a tragedy but basically joy in the fact that him growing so quickly makes me sad.

I am pondering latley that next MONTH he will be a year old!!!!!!!!!!! My baby Jacob a one year old, it seems to come at me hard. we have been to a few birthdays and one mother did share that it was sad for her to have her baby turn 1, it's such a milestone.

Babies are a bit of stardust blown

from the hand of God.

Lucky is the woman who knows the pangs of birth

for she has held a star.

I am still struggeling to put the bottles away for good. i havent started at all, actually,however i have begun to mix whole milk into J's formula, i found this to be the best way to introduce it instead of all at once. he hasent minded the taste but doesnt like the coldness so much, he is used to chugging a bottle all in one sitting, now he uses it for thirst instead of a meal.

BIRTHDAY JOY

So of course Jacobs birthday cake is going to be a turtle, acutally cupcakes set into the shape of a turtle, the theme i think however is going to be "1st birthday" stuff, i of course will be ordering things because our lovley BX has nothing!!!

SO some of you have asked about gift ideas for J, and i know it sounds crazy because hardly does a child ever need more toys, but really we havent bought any so he is starting to out grow somethings, a few ideas for his birthday are: peg puzzles- I found a brand at Target.com "Melissa and Doug" they come in a variety of peg sizes. he has one now and loves to pull the pieces out when i replace them.

another idea is some sort of push & ride toy, to stableize him as he starts to walk, and then able to ride if a few months. SO there are jsut 2 ideas:)

Grandmas i'm sure have other ideas because i have spoken with them and they know inside and out what Jacob has and needs.